XuXu's Room

It's so nice to have a nursery again... and the room is not as difficult for me emotionally as I thought it would be. Let me explain...

After we moved Zion to his surf themed "big boy" room, the nursery became a guest room and office for my husband. The decor didn't really change much. The baby things got put away and a desk and office things got put in. There was also a twin bed in there for guests. For years that was what it was.

Well, at the end April of 2007 when my mom finally got out of the hospital after a three month stay (she was fighting cancer... actually an infection that was a complication of the cancer). She came to live with us because she was still too sick to go all the way home, which was in a small town in Northern CA. She was with us for only three days, when her condition deteriorated and I had to take her back to the hospital. From there it was a rapid down hill slide and she passed away on May 2nd 2007.

So needless to say that since then, that room has been difficult for me to spend time in. I wasn't sure I could handle it being XuXu's room at first, especially without radically changing it. Well, because everything is suddenly moving so fast with the adoption we don't have time to change it. So I had to just set it back up. I've added a couple of girly-er touches. So now that it's done it feels like a sweet happy nursery and reminds me of when my son was a baby. Thank God for the peace He provides. And it is somehow a connection between XuXu and my mom... miss you Mom, love you.